Shame – Part 1

Warning – this post could trigger some For those that don’t want to read the full post, the “punch” line of this post, NEVER allow anyone to try to make you feel something that is not yours. Do not allow others to place how they feel on to you. With the overarching emotion that you … Read more

Hon, just stop eating!

I remember very clearly the day, well night, I was diagnosed with bulimia, body dysmorphia and social anxiety disorder around food and men. The level of shame that rose within me was unbearable. My first response to the therapist was, how can I get to 35 and not know I have an eating disorder? Strangely, … Read more

You don’t know my story

You don’t know my story… All you see, is the outer manifestation of the life I have lived.. You don’t know the pain, trauma, joys, successes that I have experienced in my life… You don’t know my hopes and dreams, you just look at my outer shell, and decide I am unworthy. Unworthy of your … Read more

Body Dysmorphia at it’s finest

This is me, six years ago today, and thanks to body dysmorphia, still felt like I weighed 120kg, and yet, I was 70kg…. I hated this picture because I felt like it showed my fat stomach still and was ashamed. At this point, I had been in recovery from bulimia for close to two years, … Read more